Trance

Numb Shivers under my Skin,
Sudden Alerts to recall my Conscious,
As it strays along my state of Trance,
Up, between and down within;

White Night swells up behind my eyelids,
Ghosts, in forms of Words or Nameless Sounds,
Hesitate Peacefully around my Ears,
While …using only Eyes with Flapping Lashes…
I Flow Endlessly right through this Voyage…
………………………………………….....Marveling..

Occasionally Here.

It has all started by a SMART ESCAPE, Occasional, Strange and Longful;

Soon enough, It increasingly wore up, almost, the BEST of Each Day.

Now, such a long time since then, i'm stuck Yearning for Innocent,
Sober and Concrete Balanced Life..
but yet my Will, Regardlessly Numb, rests behind a Mind that Will not
QUIT Smoking the Space..

Once, At The Distorted Verse.

Plunge a dagger in my heart,
As just as those screams in my bones;
Chuck my hands away so hard
And pulp into the next zone.

When a song reaches its distorted verse,The instruments know, its end is being hear

25

…Ten years later,
Here I am writing
In the company of
A childhood entombed in my bitter throat,
I wince,
The window deforms in a rapid budge,
I neglect,
Pep pills at my right glitter,
Suddenly gulped down,
Revise and raze within,
Meet million sisters and mothers
From ten years ago.

…Ten years later,
Here I am recalling
The innocent pubertal
Juvenile smiles just before the deep thought,
I glimpse,
Dear old faces callously left me in the grunge,
I bend,
Content memories woefully ripple
On a visible sound,
Afflict my space out and in,
Own self doctor-INE lulls and smothers
From ten years ago.

Can You?

Will you ever be who you are?
Would you take off the fake colors, you wear, which conceal your lovely shady truth?
Would you consent your mind-fitting tear to wash down the weary face and finally introduce your very first smile?
Will you cleanse your dreams from the merely pathetic needs and shift your heart unto the desires’ level?
Would you combine the meanings of one word and state yourself with the finest simplicity and very deep honesty?
Would you forfeit a fake friendship?
Won’t you be the perfect friend?

Will I ever be who I am?

1+1=1 (Dedicated to Nathalie Aoun)

There is no place
That can be compared to where you are,
Your experience is spacious
Until you’ve become the experience…

Outlying green lights are flashing;
Certainly you can spot,
Where no further than countable days
Will carry you back to me,

…yet again to become One;

Anxiety & Fear

ANXIETY;

How would it be, Down-there at the end of the road, dyed for me?
What color would survive and lit the new hole for me?
What thought would arise and linger in me?
What feelings would hit inside?
Which I would greet or which I would struggle?

FEAR;

Will I face myself down-there?
Would it recognize me to forgive me?

No End

Behind me, an innocent child, I hear,
Hissing to my heart,
Striving to keep on into me

In front of me, an empty mirror sweats to see me.

All my life
I’ve been dreaming
About days
That the skies have been way long swallowed away.


Right now, I can write down no End….